I wanted to let him know how i felt about him, but when i went to i saw that he was holding my best friends hand...OUCH...nothing could be worse than that...she knew that i loved him more than i could ever begin to imagine, sometimes i wanted to saay something but the words always seemed to get stuck, but then again maybe it wasnt really love at all just some obsession with a guy who happens to make me feel like im alive, but whatever, loves an apple and i cant say how i felt when i saw her with him, maybe its a joke, no its not she knew and she just cant stand to see me have anything she cant...i want to cry but i cant the pain in me is overwhelming but i still have to face both of them until wednesday...someone pray for me...i need it more than anything right now